In these spaces of tension that imitate the practices of everyday life: coming and going, long journeys and short distances, changing lanes, rushing past and slowing down - every person is contained in these aluminum force-fields attached to rubber wheels in motion. We are strapped into these barriers, these moving blockades,the way we are all committed to our own subjective opinions as we mediate through the world, “I am who I am” and these perceptions simultaneously promise to keep us safe and burden us with isolation from one another. But we have choices. We choose our passengers as we do our companions, we choose car exteriors and interiors the way we choose our clothes and our diets. We play different radio stations. We hold different things in our glove boxes the way we hold different secrets; some of us keep these areas locked up and locked tight while others simply open with the slightest curiosity. We pay separate lease premiums and we all arrive at different destinations with our dreams and ambitions. For the two of us riding beside each other the space is negotiated. Permissions are asked on either side to change the station, turn down the volume and lower the heat and we are committed to finding a comfortable middle ground. Though we have shared some of our most intimate conversations on these journeys, today it is far easier to describe to each other than it is to explain to one another how we should go to wherever it is we are going, and so we unwittingly argue over the minor details.
it is hard to admit that i have several, several documents on my computer - hidden on my computer in all the ways that photographs are hidden in drawers, or the way journals are locked or stowed for safe keeping just like this one. bizarre isn't it? to keep some intangible document that can be backspaced, fragmented, reorganized, copied and pasted, undone, redone, remove, reedit, review, revise, revisit whenever we want to remember what it felt like to be there in that moment. it doesn't always have to be
something at all.
I have over 100 documents on my computer that are somewhat like this.